The latest post since August (Yes this is a retarded title)

Its almost a year now and everybody is wanting
their holidays. Most of em are gonna plan their holidays dengan teliti
or maybe some are not gonna plan anything
because not planning is the plan.

Hmm many things need to be solved before this year comes to and end but
then again maybe I should just kasih biarkan
Don't know really... but the main thing is
I'm gonna enjoy 24/7 out of this holiday and no one can ME!!!
unless I get sick or something.

Well I'm still having exams so not much time to plan these stuff..
Come to think of it the papers are already leaked and
alot of people are studying answers.
Ah well.. That's K.K life.

Haven't been blogging much since August when things become
more and more shitty as it gets.
Well it's meant to be and just gotta face through it.
Plus I've been watching Gossip Girl
which is the MOST SCANDALOUS SHOW that I've seen
Hong Kong shows wasn't that scandalous.

~!@#$%^&*()
I'll just stop till here since I'm having blogger block
and everyone is going to tumblr ?? Don't know why
Till then.
As the french says
Au Revoir!

P.S = Need more oomph/umph songs. Those songs yang kasi smgat :)

Fantasy Galaxy

DREAMS

Don't you think dreams are wonderful?

Dreams could be about anything

From a gigantic tarantula to a beautiful sunset with loved ones

or it could even be about GOD.

To me dreams are what I would call a fantasy galaxy,

A place so amazing because

it could be sweet dreams about you and your love mate

or even you and your love mate in an argument

We only dream when either we worry something so much

till our mind can be thinking about it for an eternity

or it could be from the majestic feelings that you experience

either way, both are experienced by all humans

To be honest, I don't dream that much

Because there's only one dream that could make me feel like feather

and that is something I am not sharing with you all today

BooHoo.

But isn't it a waste when you dream about something so beautiful

and then you wake up,

forgetting half of the dream that just blowed up in your mind

knowing that you'll never dream the same thing twice,

I guess it's just something that I miss having,

one of those little small things that we occasionally take for granted,

like pineapple tarts, GOD I love them so much

Although we dream wonderful things

Unfortunately we too dream about the sad things

Things that can shatter your heart into a million pieces,

just like the stars in the empty dark pit

which we call it as a galaxy.

And with this,

I call dreams "fantasy galaxy"

because fantasy brings either joy or sorrow or anything

and galaxy because there it's a space where there is no limit for our imagination.

~ Fantasy Galaxy ~

P.S = I guess there's a reason why East and West are seperated.

Depression?? Depends On How You Define Depression

TALKING

It may seem harder than it actually is.
Talking has already started since the creation of mankind
By GOD of course.

It's so easy to talk to a friend who you may or may not be close to.
It's easy to talk to a stranger even if it's just saying "Hi".
It's so easy to talk to your family who are there for you.
It's so easy to talk to your lovely animals which always keep you accompanied.
It's so easy to talk about ANYTHING.

Yet, why can't I even say a proper HI?!
The awkwardness that we go through everyday.
Just so hard to talk to ♥.
Why?

Well there are always reasons though.
But that's not that what I'm blogging about.
I see her face.
She she's me.
We wave our hands.
-End Of Conversation-

So sad isn't it.
Thinking about it everyday.
Seriously hurts the thorns of a rose.
I guess ♥ is a rose.
Beautiful inside and outside.
Thorns sometimes cuts me.
: (

Ahh.. forget it.
I can't have everything I want.
Even if it could be what it is.
I know it's harder for her.
Haihz...
God save us.
God help us.
God guide us.
God,
Give me strength to face the days.

What the Future Holds For Us..

Heyz.. Any of you know the song Superman by Five for Fighting?
If you do then great, if you don't then I reckon you take some time and hear it
cause it very nice and full of feelings.
( Sounds kinda sensitive for a guy.. )

So today in a so called "Premier School",
we went to see all the colleges and universities that we might go to
like MARA, Lim Kok Wing, Inti, Cambridge, etc
This somehow has made me to realize about my future.

A 16 year old teen
Wishes to study Computer Games Designing.
Apparently I'm gonna go to LIM KOK WING located in Cyberjaya
That's in Tanah Melayu my friends.
The distance between my bro and Cyberjaya is like
From K.K to Tuaran,
perhaps 30-45minutes?

Sadly after SPM,
get my results,
immediately going to Lim Kok Wing,
to study there for 3 years and then see what happens next.

What REALLY caught me thinking is what I'm gonna leave here
Like most of my church buddies,
after SPM they went straight to their further studies.
What am I gonna miss?

A Whole Bunch Of Fun Kick-Ass Friends
From School & Church YO!

Yes I'll still be able to eat ABC and all that but
what about the fun moments in school and church?
Probably I'm gonna come back during certain semesters but
I won't be able to enjoy it as much as now though.
Sad...

As a conclusion,
Live your moments in K.K cause you won't know what might happen
NEXT...

P.S = I just want you to know that ...

Self Concious

To People Of ~!@#$%^&*()

So how have you all been doing for the past few days? Hopefully nothing much. So what's this post gonna be this time? And why am I asking so many questions? Well we're all curious because its our nature to be. Its how GOD made us. People say curiosity kill a cat but I don't really believe in that. Anyways to the body of this comprehension.

DISSECTION. Is it cruel? Is it just science? Is it BOTH??
So today we had to dissect a mice which apparently was awesome. Not much of the disgusted than the fun. Sadly it's still not nice to cut some little innocent creatures up and then skin them alive and cut their brains off. I guess its for the greater good of science. Come to think of it, we've been given life and we should appreciate it to the fullest. So if God gave those mouse lives and we took it away, wouldn't that be a sin?

Maybe it's just me being soft and all but it's really sad once u get to bond with something
and then you have to kill it :( I guess it's just how it was meant to be. Though I have to admit it was rather interesting. Hopefully the school wouldn't catch a new flu. Rodent flu to be exact.
As the French say, Au Revoir!

Peace.

Moving On

Lately I've felt very depressed
due to certain challenges that GOD has given me
I guess its a necessity for me in life
so that I can face them and go through it
even if it requires me to endure devastating pain.

LOVE
It is an expression or a feeling
that creates confusion in human beings
such as myself and the people around me
To know that one can love is joyful
But to know that one cannot love is tormenting

* Just like a diamond
* Makes me feel alive like a spark
Witnessing * eyes is exactly like blooming cherry blossoms
It mesmerizes ones soul so deep
as if you witnessed a glimpse of HEAVEN

But like diamonds
* cuts hearts so deep
it can turn ones eyes into waterfalls
To stop loving * its difficult
as if your telling me to not breathe air for eternity

So pain yet so sad
Even though she may have
already found her knight and shining armor
It breaks ones heart into a million pieces
but if * happy, then I'm glad

As time moves on
for it is inevitable to any living creature
I must move on
and forgot the past
for it is the right thing to do
and with GOD's grace
I hope that I'll be
ALRIGHT.

✟Self Reflection 2 - ✓

Ahh.. Greetings to all of you. Its been quite a hectic and heart - breaking week. Well anyways I think it's another time for me to have a self reflection again but this time I'll do things a lil differently. I'd probably got this idea from Sivik which is still a conspiracy made by the government to scam our money by making people to buy their books. Nevertheless here we go.

Firstly I think I am gonna stop DOTA. Yes you've got it right. I think I am gonna stop DOTA because it has caused lots of stress and problems with my life. Most of the foul words coming out from my mouth is mostly in dota with schoolmates which Caroline should NOT know. If i were to stop DOTA, I'd probably have more time to do other stuffs such as hanging out with friends ( not hanging out in cybercafe ). Not only that, I will also have alot of time to do my homework and study that is if I do study. Even though so, I'm still not sure yet but only time will tell.

Secondly, I've recently started daily devotion which is titled "Our Daily Bread" which is not only useful and meaningful but amazing because its kinda cool that someone can write all these for 3 months lasting. Just like what Vannessa told us during youth, we should continue doing daily devotions. No matter wether we have finished doing it or stopped cause of boredom or even somehow we just lost track, WE ALL should continue to do our daily devotion.

Third and lastly, I'm gonna do my best to stop saying foul words that Caroline and Jenny do not know of. Yes in church I might not say it at all or maybe just a little but in school its like a machine gun shooting bullets. No, im not proud of this. Every week I go to church and we keep saying forgive" us for our sins as we forgive those who sin againts us in thought, word and deed...". It might not be the exact words I assume but if I keep saying this and dont try my best to stop then I dont really see the point in saying this.

With that, I hope to be a better person. No, I'm not trying to be perfect because GOD didn't made us perfect. If he did then it probably be useless. Nobody's perfect. Not me. Not you. Noone. Only God is PERFECT.

P.S = If life had a formulae, then we wouldn't be in a real world.